5673) if you really knew me, you would know how hard it will be for me to type this without breaking down. you would know, that i love this person. too much it hurts me to even say his name. and everytime i hear it, my heart skips a beat. honestly, i can’t live without him much longer. i’d do ANYTHING to be in his arms and to just be with him for a moment. but everytime i try, his friends ruin it, or he acts like a total dick, or my friends say “hes a douche, hes not worth it, you deserve better.” bt really, i think i deserve what i WANT, and what i want is him. he’s amazing. when he smiles, ah. where am i going with this? i don’t know. where am i going with anything anymore? who knows. so, if you REALLY knew me, you would know my friends don’t understand my feelings. they say they do. but they brush it off. they tell me to brush it off. i can’t though. if you really knew me, you would know that i know no one will read this. and i will never tell anyone i wr! ote this. things would just get worse. if you really knew me, you would know i’m not taking this well, i thought i was stronger.